Last night, I came across two passages in a book that I am reading called Forgiving Our Fathers and Mothers by Leslie Leyland Fields that gave me pause. The first: “Lot’s wife looked back longingly at the sin of Sodom and Gomorrah (Genesis 19:26) We can stubbornly cling to our pain and refuse to live beyond it, but God is greater than the power of our past".”
And the second: “I run in the path of your commands, for you have set my heart free (Psalm 119:32)”.
These passages describe two very different people. The first, Lot’s wife, has clung to the past, refusing to stop looking back at the sin that defined her, and is now stuck in that position forever. Turned to a pillar of salt, she will forever be staring at the past that she could have escaped, but through her own actions, refused to let it go.
The second person realizes that God has set his heart free from sin and his past and his failures and the failures of others and is RUNNING through life, enjoying the intimacy that God offers BECAUSE he acknowledges that he has been set free.
I have often felt like I have a little kid in me, jumping at the opportunity to be free. God is beginning to connect the dots.